No. Not the end. I have more to say but I'm going to say it later. I LOVE YOU BLACK MAN!! And when you are out in the world hustling and doing positive productive things I will be one of your biggest fans. If you're bullshitting and on some fuckery, I will be very sad and disappointed. You can't be on team Nikki. Cuz round here, we are in it to win it and we have our people to take care of. I love you black man. You are AMAZINGLY SPECIAL AND A GIFT FROM GOD!! The strongest and yet most tender men on the face of this earth. You have been put through so much and STILL YOU RISE!!
First of all, my Dad was black (R.I.P.) and a very very handsome man who spent a lot of time with me and spoiled me rotten. So my first role model for a black man was my Dad and I love him to pieces. He was 99.9999% always very kind, sweet and gentle with me and treated me like a princess. Not only was he good to me but he was good to everyone. He always treated all my friends and family with loving kindness as well. He was probably one of the most generous giving people I will ever know. Protector, provider, and an all around great guy.
My uncles, my older brother and all my cousins (mostly older) were also all very kind to me, loving and protective. I spent a lot of time around my guy cousins because my Dad was a sports fanatic and I went to a lot of my cousins' and brothers games with my Dad. I did have one older cousin who bullied me for a little bit until my Dad told him "If you ever touch my daughter again I will kill you". Other than that, I have had fond experiences with the black men in my family who were always very loving and kind, spoiled me and treated me like a little princess they were proud of. Not only were they good to me, but all the men took care of the women and all the girls were/are treated like princesses. And all the men in my family are/were fine!! Thank God for good genes.
So naturally when it comes to attraction and romance, I love black men. Can't change what nature makes me attracted to. I am not completely closed to other races, it's just that when I see black men I see God. And I'm okay with that.
Nicole D. Ford (Nikki)
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