As offensive as this guy is, his videos actually crack me up because he, at the very least, resonates with me in the sense that religion is often shoved down our throats, insults our intelligence (or at least mine) and blocks our TRUE spiritual nature. Of course, that's just my opinion and I'm totally open to you "doing you" as long as you let me "do me."
I am extremely spiritual and many religious/spiritual concepts DO actually resonate with me once I get beyond simple logic and intellect. I do believe in prayer, I meditate and journal almost every day, and I believe god speaks to me in the whispers of the silence of my mind. I really don't want to make this about religion vs spirituality (save that for another day) so fuck it...let me move on to what the hell I want to talk about right now.
I want to talk about the idea that some people are always trying to do shit and think they are doing shit to hurt me and it never ever works in the long run. And I mean NEVER. It's funny when I think about all the times someone thinks they are hurting me, leaving me out, dissing me, ditching me, talking about me, stabbing me in the back (or the front), think I'm stupid, try to play me for a fool, disrespect me, or whatever.....trying to hurt me in general.
Sometimes it's conscious, sometimes unconscious. Sometimes it's intentional or deliberate and sometimes it is not. There are times when I do feel rejected and hurt in a moment, and yet I ALWAYS come back to my experiences knowing that whatever someone does to me, it seems to come back on them a thousand fold.
I mean almost always.
I have seen the continuous laws of karma come back and kick MAJOR ass time and time again. It may not be overnight, but it's really hilarious when 99% of the time, I get to see how people's bullshit comes back to haunt them. And so even though I may get temporarily caught up in a moment of someone's bullshit, as long as I'm journalling, meditating and conscious, it is not all that easy for someone to steal my joy. Which ironically, I think makes people even more mad sometimes. Oh well...TOO BAD!
The most recent "diss" I want to talk about is this..
For several months, I was part of a group that had a lot of potential to go somewhere. However, the leader unfortunately kept pissing everyone off and was incapable of keeping all the REAL professional talent around. Even though I left the group for a while, I came back for a brief period when she hired (and then fired) some people who I thought could make a difference.
We had a performance in January and I'm not even sure why I was surprised, but she had the videographer stand on a certain side of the stage where the drummers who provided ALL of the music could not be seen. After weeks and weeks of showing up to rehearsals and watching these chicks STRUGGLE to learn choreography and being patient, giving hours and hours of our time and talent away because we believed in her vision, this is the "thanks" we get.
You think I'm lying? SEE AND LISTEN FOR YOURSELF:
So the thing that is great about this, is that it's actually a wonderful blessing in disguise that we're NOT in the video being seen wasting our talent with this pitiful schlock of bullshit. I can understand if these people put this together in a day but SOME of these girls have been rehearsing some of this the same shit since AUGUST of 2014. I'm NOT LYING.
TRUST ME...I DIDN'T STAY FOR LONG.
BUT...first of all, every chance and opportunity I get to learn and play with the best, I try to take it. Anything that is going to help develop me as a musician/entertainer, challenge and push me, I will at least do it until I get bored or I stop having fun. Which is why I quit then came back.
ALSO, the leaders of this group sold all of us all kinds of lines and brought all kinds of different people in claiming that something was going to pop off real soon. Maybe they believe in their own pipe dreams and maybe they were telling the truth, but it really became apparent that they didn't know what they were doing when they paraded this guy in front of us who was also trying to dupe THEM and sell us a bunch of bullshit. LUCKILY in the middle of one of our rehearsals, we actually were blessed enough to see this ITEAM investigation and open our eyes to the fact that the leaders of this group may have decent intentions but they CLEARLY are a long way from reaching their goal(s). I have all the text messages we exchanged the day this story came out and clearly while she was trying to baffle us with bullshit, someone was baffling HER with BIGGER bullshit. KARMA.
So, after the performance above where the leader got into an argument with one of her dancers and her choreographer,
fired them (so she claims) and then tried to blast me with some bullshit on What's App...I just realized that while this person has a talent and knack for networking and recruiting people into her organization, she can't keep good talented people around because her interpersonal, relationship and leadership skills SUCK MAJOR ASS. Through the blindness of her own narcissistic arrogant megalomania, it is apparent that she is not ever going to be able to be successful because she doesn't know how to keep good people around her. "Nice" people yes. People who are marginally talented and need to be given a chance? YES. BUT GOOD people? NOPE. Not for long.
GOOD professional people who have talent and successes under their belts know they don't have to stick around and deal with bullshit and disrespect. It's really that simple. After that performance and her bullshit, I never went back knowing that if she can't keep good dancers and choreographers around, this group will never ever succeed. She can prove me wrong but at this rate, I doubt it.
Recently I found the video above and thought, see...I'm glad I left that bullshit and complete disrespect behind.
NO REGRETS. NONE.
I always remember that no matter what someone tries to do to me, NO WEAPONS FORMED AGAINST ME EVER PROSPER. NEVER NEVER NEVER and I thank god for the times when I'm being pushed to MOVE ON.
No one can EVER truly steal my joy!
THAT'S EXACTLY HOW THINGS END WHEN YOU MESS WITH ME.